This might not be a visually stimulating film. But...
(tl;dr version at the bottom)
I'm a gay woman, I'm a switch these, although I'm 70/30 top/bot. Which is great because my partner is 15/85 topbitch/bot-painslut-humiliation.
When I was 15 I discovered that I did actually like girls and I was never going to "grow into" liking boys. That was very hard for me, as I went to a catholic girls boarding school, I was taught by lots of nuns (as well as regular teachers), and I'm quite religious.
That was also the year I stayed at a friend's house overnight with a small group of friends. And she produced some magazines that she'd found in her parent's bedroom (Yes, magazines, it was a few years ago :) ). And she showed us the leather cuffs and a headharness (with a huge ring-gag) and some other equipment in their locked wardrobes. Very simple locks that all used the same key. Stupid.
The restrained women in the magazines, and the smell of the leather, made me realize that this was what I wanted. While the other girls were all laughing and pretending to be drunk and pretending to like the taste of the wine bottle that we'd opened, I was fascinated but had to pretend that I found it as disgusting as they did.
So for years I thought I was a freak for liking girls, wanting to be restrained, and wanting to dominate.
tl;dr version
Any chance that some of your wonderful ladies can talk about acceptance, and how you're not a freak for having these desires/fantasies and wanting to roleplay etc? Obviously it is far too late for me, I learned long ago to be comfortable with who I am and the stuff I like to do which isn't easy to find online. I just wondered if that might help other women (or guys, not offense boys!) to not feel like a freak, and not be ashamed (unless they like the shame part, I kind of do some days).
Thanks,
S&H
(tl;dr version at the bottom)
I'm a gay woman, I'm a switch these, although I'm 70/30 top/bot. Which is great because my partner is 15/85 topbitch/bot-painslut-humiliation.
When I was 15 I discovered that I did actually like girls and I was never going to "grow into" liking boys. That was very hard for me, as I went to a catholic girls boarding school, I was taught by lots of nuns (as well as regular teachers), and I'm quite religious.
That was also the year I stayed at a friend's house overnight with a small group of friends. And she produced some magazines that she'd found in her parent's bedroom (Yes, magazines, it was a few years ago :) ). And she showed us the leather cuffs and a headharness (with a huge ring-gag) and some other equipment in their locked wardrobes. Very simple locks that all used the same key. Stupid.
The restrained women in the magazines, and the smell of the leather, made me realize that this was what I wanted. While the other girls were all laughing and pretending to be drunk and pretending to like the taste of the wine bottle that we'd opened, I was fascinated but had to pretend that I found it as disgusting as they did.
So for years I thought I was a freak for liking girls, wanting to be restrained, and wanting to dominate.
tl;dr version
Any chance that some of your wonderful ladies can talk about acceptance, and how you're not a freak for having these desires/fantasies and wanting to roleplay etc? Obviously it is far too late for me, I learned long ago to be comfortable with who I am and the stuff I like to do which isn't easy to find online. I just wondered if that might help other women (or guys, not offense boys!) to not feel like a freak, and not be ashamed (unless they like the shame part, I kind of do some days).
Thanks,
S&H